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Do you wonder why people walk all over you?
It's because you're too naive for your own good
You can try all you want but you'll never carry it through
When it implies trusting people, which you can't do...
Oh, I know, you can't help those who
don't ask, for it first, but it hurts to
watch you, struggle, over something so simple
(even) I could do
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Do you love yourself the way that your parents do?
And if they don't, well, at least the way they should.
They should've never projected their failures onto you,
They had no idea how bad it'd fuck you up.
Bet you, never, thought you could hurt another
And you'd ignore those fantasies
In which you get your revenge, or take it out on someone innocent
Who deserves better
Everybody's got something dark within them
It's a cursed place called "hell"...
Will you be Cain? Or will you be Abel?
... to live with yourself
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(untitled interlude)
01:04
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I won't tell you, if you don't tell me
'bout a relationship we're in, apart
It'd only serve, to make us feel worse
than necessary, bunny
I still think about the day
you told me I destroyed you, so you destroyed me in return
I was at work when, I cried in front of a bustling crowd of patrons
but luckily, nobody noticed me
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Anytime you told me about
People you've been with before, at all
I know we weren't together yet, but it still hurt to hear about
I still think about the time
You told me I was too rational to be spiritual
You were so right, it hurt
And it felt worse to be compared to others
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Do you remember
The time I said
"I wish I had amnesia,
so I could meet you again"?
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(bunnyless interlude)
00:27
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Bunnyless (for Jacquie)
04:24
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I miss a bunny
and relapse to where I need
a little solace (sometimes)
I miss that rabbit,
she was addicted to life
and all of it's things
(instrumental)
I miss that rabbit,
jumped over the moon and
disappeared forever
I miss that bunny,
'got too close and
now she's gone forever
A relationship built
on anything but the truth
is doomed
heed this, listen...
please
But if I love her, and I know I do
I should let her be free
(And the same... for me)
(I miss you, sometimes)
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(eight years interlude)
00:27
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In Eight Years...
03:00
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A year or two in the making...
(well three... just about)
In eight years, you'll be four years older
(than me...)
I'm SO alone!
When you're not around to talk to
Some days there's things
I really wanna say to you... (or show you...)
But I can't... so I won't
I'm in love... with a girl
Sometimes it feels like I'm missing
someone important to my life
Then I realize It's You, it's Always You
and I deny it and try to move on...
You're ON my mind!
You're all the time...
I wish you were mine, and
I wish I was yours
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(selah interlude)
01:17
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Selah
04:48
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Constantly listening to depressing music
All the anxiety pills make me feel sick
Feel like I've never been happy before, nor will I be again
Days go by... no sign of an end
Wish I could be murdered
So I wouldn't have to do it myself
My friends will feel anger!
Instead of remorse and regret...
When I starve myself to death
I feel the pain, I deserve it
When I think about the future
Life's not worth it
(I don't think I'm
Ever gonna eat again)
Wishin' I never met you so you wouldn't be sad
When I pass
Wishin you outta my life
Not from dislike, but 'cause I love you a lot
And if we don't work out, that really scares me...
just the thought
(and now that you're gone
well...)
I'm constantly on the verge of another
Panic attack
Having to plan my schedule
Based around that
I want change, but I fear it
I want everything the same, but I hate it!
And now you're gone, oh God...
Now you've gone.
Voy a sentir mejor, en Selah
Voy a sentir bien, cuando pasara
Sentire mejor, en Selah
Yo, sentire mejor, cuando pasara
Invite me to your sister's wedding
And your dad's funeral
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(solace interlude)
01:38
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Solace
05:40
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Feel so tired, every night
Feel inadequate at the sight of other's success
Nothing gives me solace anymore, it seems
I'll, stay in my room and I'll lock the door... again
I don't know what to do at all anymore, these days
Another week like this, and I think I'll go insane
Insane
Insane...
(instrumental)
Don't know when but there's gonna be a day
Sometime in the future when I'm gonna pass away
Might be tomorrow, or in a few decades
All I know's that there's gonna be a day
I can't help but think back, to my cursed childhood
And all the time's I'd given up and taken comfort in
The pity and attention and the inverse of pride
And I don't like myself...
[a mantra]
I regret so much
And I will regret so much
There is nothing left
and there will be nothing left
The feeling that all
feeling never mattered at
all haunts me each day
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How do you spend the time, waiting for something to happen always
Do I really miss you? Or am I just being too nostalgic?
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Do I love you, or am I just romanticizing the past?
Do you reminisce about me the way I do you?
And I didn't believe her when she said, "if they cared they would've reached out by now"
I didn't believe that, for a second.
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Do you remember the time my brother asked to borrow Rayman 3 for the GameCube, and you said...
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(silhouette interlude)
00:32
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Silhouette Song
02:43
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If paint is light, aurora borealis canvas...
silhouette of you is what got to me last night
And I can't help myself, and I can't help you,
anymore than you could.....
No amount of prints or paintings, no composition compilations...
is gonna fill the void that's in our hearts
No amount of still life studies, no courses and hours and hours,
is enough to make life worth it
Now that we're both here, there's something you should know
Somedays I feel less than human
And all the feeling comes back, and like tides they will sway,
and drive others away
Depressed, repressed, erect, a wreck,
I've been numb for more days than I can count.
And it feels like I've never felt anything at all
The longer you hold back
Something's gonna break
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(result of interlude)
00:33
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& when it all comes falling down, your fears will come true
& when it hits you all at once, I wont be near to comfort you
let it all come falling down, let your plans all fall through
let you realize what you've done, tell me I'm so right
and when you wake up in the morning, see the sky's a crimson blue
cascades scream and yearning, oleander's in bloom
& when the world just keeps on turning, despite what comes to you
& when people always move on, despite the horror of living
& when the issues keep on piling, & when the bad days turn to weeks
& weeks to months to years, & you can't remember the last time
you felt good....
Let it all come falling down, let it all come falling down.... {etc forever}
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(oedipal interlude)
00:37
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Oedipal Ouroboros
03:15
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You're so resentful.
You don't even believe your own two,
children when they say, uncomfortable truths
Standoffish.
You push others away, to the point,
where I haven't seen some family in about a decade
You, you can't be 50 and still care what your parents think to the extent that you do
and you, you can't be this old and still resent your little sister for being a spoiled brat all her life
and you, you should've broken the cycle of the Oedipal mother that stopped you from helping yourself
and now, I guess it's up to me to try and break free, from the tyrannical grasp of your past
and I will do so much better in honour of you,
I'll make up for the lost time, "you're out of line to me"
(instrumental)
My will; hold me... tell my mother i never knew how to tell her I love her
My will; tell him... despite everything ever, you remain to be my father
I will do so much better in honour of you,
I'll make up for the lost time, "you're out of line to me"
This, I promise
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(tenka-ichi interlude)
01:00
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I'm in love
With a girl who always fights me, and I fight too
'Love you, Jude
But you're tearing me apart
I don't know how the fights do start
But it's always you
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There's no greater pain
Than the remnants of a ruined relationship
In the words of Jim MarBurger,
"Life is grief, and flashes of ecstasy"
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Oh, Judy
Anytime we test our relationship, it
never looks any better... no matter how hard we try
And oh, baby
We've been at it all damn day, lets
put our fists down, and
wont you please...
come back to bed
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(two dead interlude)
01:01
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I don’t want to go to sleep
And I don’t want to dream
On a table or on the floor
In a car outside at night in the snow
Waking up in someone else’s bed
Something tells me I’m losing my head
I don’t want to leave
Just dye my hair and sleep
The world is ending in my dreams
Every week for the last few years
And when it really ends they’ll fill my body with flames
You and I will be a household name
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(april 8th interlude)
00:25
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Crawl across toward your window
I'm calling softly from the street
Always a lonely widow
Half awake and sleeping on my feet
I'm of age but have no children
No quarter phone booth calls to home
Just late television
Inside my bedroom all alone
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There is no use in waiting
Offer up your steps so I can climb
Show me all your figure paintings
Etched in the middle of the night
Let me stretch upon your carpet
Let me hear the rain tap on your street
Knowing I am safe on the inside
Blankets wrapped and drifting off to sleep
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(skull interlude)
00:33
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Plant a seed in my skull
So a skull tree may grow
Modulate me...
Do with me as you will
I'm yours,
I'll be the vessel and you'll be the potter, now...
Bury shells in my grave
So my soul has a place to stay
Forget about me entirely....
Just move on.
I was never really there to begin with.
I've been gone a long time,
I should've left a long, long time ago
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28. |
(thank you)
00:49
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A Shiba Texas
A Shiba is a small solo project by some lame guy in Texas. Initially acoustic and folky, soon came elements of field
recordings, sampling, freak folk, and noise rock.
Later came math rock, slowcore and emo influences. We'll see what the future holds.
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